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In Case You Were Wondering
Some of you are no doubt aware of the significance of today's date. Today is exactly one year to the day that Lanie and I got married.
I find myself wondering what to expect to feel today because clearly the date is a significant one. But its significance - in terms of being a day I'm upset or melancholy or something - isn't really very relevant to my real feelings.
I'm okay folks I really am.
Well as okay as I usually am on Sunday morning, the part of the week that I really don't like at all1 - but I won't bore you with the whys of that.
I think to a great extent the surety of my faith and what happens when we die means that I am at peace about many things. And let's be honest - you've seen over the last few months the wonderful and surprising turn my life has taken - how could anyone bemoan something so wonderful?
I'm from a Roman Catholic family, though a liberal Protestant Christian by practice and so there many aspects of losing a loved one that are different from my family. There's that surety in my faith - so that I don't gain comfort or seek comfort in continued masses for the dead, worry over the location of their eternal rest and so on.
I'm getting on with life. And a damn fine life it is too.
Jo is, as you might expect, more concerned for me than I am. She is as brilliant, kind and caring as ever and making sure that on this oddest of dates that if I fall to bits she'll be there to sweep me up and put me back together. Lesser men might use such a day to their advantage, me, I'm a good boy!2
Our real main concern this weekend is actually Patrick and Kitty who are both full of a cold, with Kitty sounding more congested than her brother. Actually today they seem much better than yesterday - but this is still something new for us to deal with as parents and watching our babes struggle is sad.
But anyway, there we go. I only popped on to make a quick post to explain to any of you remembering the date that I'm really fine thankyouverymuch. I'll be happier still when the wife...soon to be wife3...gets home from work. In the meantime I may educate the twins in the fine details of FIFA 08 on Xbox 360, Halo 3 being a bit too jumpy for them.
I need to teach the twins about the Manchester United squad. If I try hard enough when Jo isn't around I can perhaps avoid them following her footsteps and supporting the scum. She sang "Blue is the Colour" to them yesterday, that's really not on is it?4
Anyway, I'm digressing now so I may as well finish. But as you can seem, I'm doing good folks.
/skips merrily out of blog post.
1Though in the scheme of things I'm so happy much of the time that unhappy now is still cheerier than most of the rest of my life.
2Relatively!
3I keep thinking of Jo as my wife as we work so well as a team and we are a happy little family now - so April 5th 2008 will be a confirmation of what we have, rather than just the beginning of something new. That and a bloody great party.
4But then there's mixed feelings of it being so brilliant to have a girlfriend that is a genuine football fan.
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As for J's team - a little rival banter around the house is quite good. Though obviously when the twins are older we may have conflicts of interest - we're thinking of not forcing either way and taking them to Brentford.